Your One Way Ticket

chorus-You got your one way ticket to heaven today, you got your wings today. You finally had enough and said goodbye to the world. I can't cry because it's over, I have to smile because of the moments we had. The late conversations, and the early good mornings.

verse one-Saying goodbye was the hardest thing for me to do. You taking your life was the hardest thing to deal with. Seeing your face in my dreams and waking up knowing it wasn't real it was just a dream. I wish that day was just a dream, and I could see you again just once.

Repeat chorus 2x

Verse two- seeing your casket in the front of the room killed me a little bit inside. Knowing your really gone, and I can't say I love you and hear it come back out of your mouth. I lay awake at night just waiting for your texts, the phone rings and I rush to get it but it isn't you. A tear runs down my face, because I know it will never be you to text me again.

Repeat chorus 1x

verse three-  Now your six feet under, my life isn't the same without you. I sit next to you in the cemetery, talking away letting you know that I still care and know you are with me. As I listen to the wind blow, I know it's you comforting me, one of the stars in the night ski is you twinkling above me letting me know you will always be there watching down on me making sure I know I have a guardian angel leading me in the right direction.

Repeat chorus 3x   (speaking it the 3 time)

I LOVE YOU  JDB



JODY DON BURGNER  I LOVE U AND MISS YOU XOXOXO

My boo

My best friend.... Phillip Pine.... soon i will b Ashlee Pine. I LOVE U BABE 

Hell

My mom thinks she can put me through hell but I have been there already no one can hurt me

 

 Dream Big and Dare To Fail!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Norman Vaughan)

You  Must Be the Change You Wish to see in the World

(Gandhi)

Tough Times NEVER LAST. But Tough people Do.

(Dr. Robert Schuller) 

The best way out is ALWAYS THROUGH.

  ( Robert Frost)

The power of IMAGINATION makes us infinite.

(John Muir)

Hope

I hope he leaves soon i am tired of the shit. I am tired of the lies! Just wish things would go back to normal for everyone. I feel like shit and id he feels the need to piss me off someone might end up hurt! I love the life i live.

Picture Memory




My Grandparents and I at Graduation.

 My Grandparents Dorothy and Elven, mean the world to me they are awesome people they would do anything for me and I would always be there for them to. My grandfather is the strongest man I know. He had open hart surgery in January, and is doing awesome today.





The Last Picture I  Have With My Dad. It Was At One Of The Best Days Ever. GRADUATION.

This is my dad and I, at my graduation. I really didn't think he was going to come but he did. I couldn't believe how proud he was of me. I miss the old times with my dad. Like when I was little and use to do alot of stuff with me. I miss that. 





My best friend :) Savanna

This girl was my life in high school. I miss her so much I need to get together with her !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love her she is like my sister





This is Adrian my awesome boy friend





 Adrian. Wow. There is so much I could say about my boo. He is the sweetest Man I have ever Knowen. He takes good care of me. I love Him. I swear if I ever lose him, I will lose myself :(.

Here is a little poem for him:

“When I saw you, I was afraid to meet you.

 When I met you, I was afraid to kiss you.

 When I kissed you, I was afraid to love you.

 Now that I love you, I'm afraid to lose you.”

Thats how I feel about him. Know I love him I am really afraid to lose him.

If Tears Could Build a Stair Way

If tears could build a stairway,
and memories build a lane,
I'd walk right up to heaven,
and bring you home again.
No farewell wordss were spoken,no time to say "goodbye",
You were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why.
My heart still aches with sadness,
and secret tears still flow.
What it meant to love you-
No one can ever know,
But now I know you want me
to mourn for you no more;
To remember all the happy times,
life still has much in store.
Since you'll never be forgottenI pledge to you today-
A hollowed place within my heart
is where you'll always stay.

This is a poem for all the people I have lost. I wish I could hear your voices one last time but your so far away, With no stair well or tel-phone. Miss you all so much and can't wait to see you agiain.

Goodbye isn't forever.
Goodbye isnt the end.
Good buy simply means
 I will miss you until we meet again!

Love you Grandma

   Today is just memories and fun times love all you mentioned in this blog

I miss you Grandma Betty



Wow. Today it really hit me that my Grandma Betty is not doing good. They dont think she will make it. I regret not being closer to you. I just want to say sorry and I love you but I can't get to Utah right know. I am sorry I failed as a granddaughter. I love you for ever. No matter on Earth or in Heaven. I don't want you to be hurting anymore. I want the best for you, I want you to be better. I hate feeling like this. I hate not knowing what i had until, its prity much gone. It hurts.



I cant quit crying. I want you to be okay. I want you to be there to see me grow. I think about you on a daily basis. I really can't believe that this is really happening. All I can do is rembember the good times we had and miss you for the healthy you not the sick you. Love you Grandma Betty.

I swear things start going good, and then shit hits the fan and gets bad again. It sucks. I feel alone because I am the only one in my mom's house feeling these emotions. It sucks. My mom is supporting me though witch is making this a little easyer. The hurtful part is that I am the only one hurting. God works in mystirous ways, he lets a new one come into the world and takes the good people away. Why couldn't he take the criminals and put babies back on the earth to do good for the familys. I don't get the way God works, it kills me bad. I feel like I am fighting the demonds by myself.

I wrote this poem about my grandma and the things that i will always rember about her.

A Grandma's Love-

A grandma's love never dies,

even when she is long gone.

The memories never fade,

even when they do.

The love you shared will always

be there no matter were she is.

I will always love you grandma.

\I just wish i could thank everyone who is supporting me in my time of needs. I want to thank my:

• My mom- she is an awesome lady
• My boy friend Adrian- he is a sweet hart
• My sister Jessica- she is a life saver
• My grandparents Elvin and Dorothy- they are awesome
• My father- he is just there

Trying to keep myself busy but its not working I keep thinking about shit thats going on. It hurts and I just need to keep myself busy. I can't believe things like this are really going on... just when I get happy with Adrian. It really fucking sucks. O how i wish things would be back to normal .In less than an 45 Mins I will be seeing my daddy. For the first Time since this stuff with my grandma witch is going to be really hard,.I don't want to see my dad like this its going to kill me. Just kidding I am not going to see him probably. I GOT TO SEE MY DAD